Mine not ours

I just needed to rant.

I've started the week and ended today on a bad note.

Ii ask myself, Why am i doing things that won't do me any good when me myself know the end result of it... And you know what's worse? I am doing it over and over and over again, apologising over and over again and end up doing the same thing the next time. At many times i type or say things i don't mean as they are just words of frustrations and anger at that moment. In fact sometimes when i say no, deep down inside i am actually saying the opposite. I think i am just a selfish person and i only think about myself. I think i should be buried in a hole or maybe lock myself up in a cave. I hate myself, again for the 55657352095134456361345 time..